Live in Love.

I need to bring the darkness out of hiding
or the mask will soon swallow me up
the paper-mache is becoming binding
and I don’t know if this light is enough
What once was bliss
is now pure fear
It’s crazy to think
how much has changed in a year
I can’t stand to imagine
that this mask is my fate
I need to move forward
before it’s too late

I want to hold onto the world
Be a part of it
Grasp it
But it escapes me and I’m trapped in space
A space that’s so loud with expectation
I go deaf
And the loud speakers portray the expectation as encouragement
So I’m forced to look with high hopes rather than low shoulders
And to rise up with a beaming smile
But the sun doesn’t give light because it’s expected to
It just does
As should I be not expected to figure it out
But just be
I am no different from you
I am lost but I know someday I’ll find my way
And I’ll be able to have climbed that metaphorical mountain top and say “it’s beautiful here.” because I’ll have grasped my reality
I’ll hold the world in my hands
Don’t rush.
Don’t tap your foot.
I’m getting there.

War zone

When the dust had settled
Both sides laid their weapons to rest
Each side feeling
Like they’d done their best
Though the war is over
The wounds still inflict pain
And the other side never sees
what damage became of this game
Stories and exaggerations
will grow throughout time
But I guess when it’s all said and done
No apology was given, nope, never mind